This has probably been the worst years yet. Of course they were some amazing moments, but they were many moments this year that left me completely hopeless. A lot of bad decisions were made in 2016, not just by me but the people around me. These decisions effected my life and caused me to be more pessimistic than ever. There was a moment where I felt like there was just conflict after conflict without any time in between to recuperate. I felt like I was constantly in a bad environment. I thought the people who cared about me were letting me down and I stopped caring about people and how they were feeling. I have become an emotionless person that has trouble relating to other people’s feelings.
I especially stopped caring how I spend my money. Shopping used to make me feel so happy, but I don’t feel anything more. I realized that no matter how many things I buy, when it comes to moments of conflict nothing I buy will make the situation better. I thought, what’s the point of saving when you’re eventually going to spend the money anyways? I know that school of thought is wrong, but money was scarce this year. You would think I would have learned the value of it, but it’s just so unfair that a piece of paper determines so many factors in your life. I do want to budget and prioritize how I should spend my money this new year. However, that means cutting back on Caramel Macchiato’s and adding more to my lipstick collection. I don’t know if I’m ready for that.
School during 2016 was absolutely a train wreck. Not all my professors were the greatest and it was difficult to find the will to go to school. I wasn’t the best student, I did not manage my time well and because of that I couldn’t put as much effort into my work as I wanted to.
During the school year, I learned that I am an extrovert but they are also moments when I’m really shy. I can be obnoxious and over dramatic. at times. Some have even told me that I am, “too much,” but I don’t know how to be, “a little (?).” I have a big personality and I’m not apologizing for who I am.
By far the best moment of 2016 was the summer. I’m proud of the fact that I used my time wisely by focusing on creating better content for the blog. I learned how to use a DSL camera and am hoping to continue to enhance my skills with photography and Photoshop in 2017. I reached 100 followers on the blog and that may not be a lot to some people, but it is for me. I appreciate each and every single one of you that take the time to read my blog.
Not only that, but one of my best friends who also happens to be my aunt came to Toronto for over a month. She is just three years older than me.My siblings and I drove her crazy but having her here is always a good time. Many family members from afar came to visit during the summer. They were many weddings and parties and I celebrated all of them with my extended family.
The greatest success of 2016 and really any year was the fact I was alive to live another year. Most importantly I was healthy. Without my health I wouldn’t be able to enjoy the good moments life has to offer. The new year is a reminder to everybody that they can improve who they are and the current state of their life. However, you can change at any moment. I always have daily goals, but I like to take the new year as a chance to reflect on my life. It was a difficult year, but it could have been worse. I’m thankful that I’m alive to be apart of 2017 and hopefully I’m alive to witness 2018. Onwards my sass queens.
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